Monday, June 3, 2013 @ 10:43 AM |
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Hi I am going for Engin Camp tomorrow! (am abit excited and scared now haha) But Jz and I are in the same group (so qiao!!!) ^^ I hope I wont be a giant among the group tomorrow :( Nowadays I have been gaining a lot of weight lol and it's very visible kind sighpie and the saddest thing is that I am too lazy/tired to go and run to exercise it off. I think I need to start my routine of doing sit-ups and carrying weights already. Anw I have been carrying little light "weights" in Jan/Feb to tone my arms (and it really worked! Hahah I got more muscles and it looked quite nice :D) But the joy is short-termed because I stopped training my arms and all the muscles I got became fats *_* So I have super flabby arms now. Actl I am very fine w how I look (my weight/size/etc) but hor, after looking at those petite girls that are very fair and cute I feel zibei :\ Those shorter girls, no matter how fat they are, people will call them chubby/cute but for me, because I am bigger in size, when I gain weight it is so freaking obvious and no one will say it's cute/chubby (ok, not like I really want someone to say that to me lol) I just want to lose weight. Without doing anything LOL impossible yes I know! HOW DO PEOPLE LOSE WEIGHT MANZ okay I will control my diet after engin camp I need to lose weightttttttt.
Anyway I didnt perform well for the past 2 matches, super disappointing I swear. I know everyone is disappointed in me too :( Because during trngs I can shoot quite well (mostly will go in one...) but during competition is like a none-will-go-in-kind. But everyone is still very nice to me saying good work, try harder, it's okay we'll get it back, it's okay because it's your first game so you're feeling stressed and all... IT'S NOT OKAY WHAT I AM A SHOOTER AND I CANT SHOOT WELL. Yeah I guess everyone is just trying to make me feel better. But maybe I am really stressed haha, like from within and I cant really feel it. NEED TO RELAX *breathes in and out* I really can do this one...... I dont want to disappoint anymore. There's another match tomorrow (yep and it's engin camp too so im leaving camp early for the match. I love playing netball haha but I am skipping the match on Thurs because it is too mafan already. I still love netball anw. If the team needs me I'll fly down! n_n) Need to have more confidence in myself. Jyjy :)
Hi I am going for Engin Camp tomorrow! (am abit excited and scared now haha) But Jz and I are in the same group (so qiao!!!) ^^ I hope I wont be a giant among the group tomorrow :( Nowadays I have been gaining a lot of weight lol and it's very visible kind sighpie and the saddest thing is that I am too lazy/tired to go and run to exercise it off. I think I need to start my routine of doing sit-ups and carrying weights already. Anw I have been carrying little light "weights" in Jan/Feb to tone my arms (and it really worked! Hahah I got more muscles and it looked quite nice :D) But the joy is short-termed because I stopped training my arms and all the muscles I got became fats *_* So I have super flabby arms now. Actl I am very fine w how I look (my weight/size/etc) but hor, after looking at those petite girls that are very fair and cute I feel zibei :\ Those shorter girls, no matter how fat they are, people will call them chubby/cute but for me, because I am bigger in size, when I gain weight it is so freaking obvious and no one will say it's cute/chubby (ok, not like I really want someone to say that to me lol) I just want to lose weight. Without doing anything LOL impossible yes I know! HOW DO PEOPLE LOSE WEIGHT MANZ okay I will control my diet after engin camp I need to lose weightttttttt.
Anyway I didnt perform well for the past 2 matches, super disappointing I swear. I know everyone is disappointed in me too :( Because during trngs I can shoot quite well (mostly will go in one...) but during competition is like a none-will-go-in-kind. But everyone is still very nice to me saying good work, try harder, it's okay we'll get it back, it's okay because it's your first game so you're feeling stressed and all... IT'S NOT OKAY WHAT I AM A SHOOTER AND I CANT SHOOT WELL. Yeah I guess everyone is just trying to make me feel better. But maybe I am really stressed haha, like from within and I cant really feel it. NEED TO RELAX *breathes in and out* I really can do this one...... I dont want to disappoint anymore. There's another match tomorrow (yep and it's engin camp too so im leaving camp early for the match. I love playing netball haha but I am skipping the match on Thurs because it is too mafan already. I still love netball anw. If the team needs me I'll fly down! n_n) Need to have more confidence in myself. Jyjy :)
